Oh and while I'm spewing words from my tooter - here's a thing I've written a lot of journal entries about lately:
I'm very likely in Club ADHD (undiagnosed) and it's occurred to me that I've internalized a minimum bar for personal performance set by what happens when I hyperfocus.
Problem is, my hyperfocus is uncontrolled and extra-ordinary.
It seems to reliably kick in when I feel like I'm in a calamitous emergency, though!
So, either I induce a feeling like the sky is falling just to grade myself at a C - or I just feel I'm perpetually failing. And the latter often leads to the former!
Haha, nice job brain! 😅