A chill in the air this morning means it's festive comfy hat season

A thing I just wrote in my journal: All this precious self-care and sighfully questing for a golden hour of entertaining my muse in a sun-dappled meadow is just procrastination. And yet, this self-critique does nothing to alter the fact that I have useless soup for brains at 9pm on a Tuesday night. So, what's a more constructive path forward?

@obsolete29 I very highly recommend it!

Another theme in my journal entries is deconstructing the decades-old standards I've internalized to unreasonably expect myself to be able to leap cliffs in a single hyperfocused bound, rather than scale them step-by-step and one problem at a time. Makes for a very miserable, demoralizing headspace.

Especially annoying because it's true, on very rare and particular occasions, I have been able to to extraordinary things. Like write a half-dozen book chapters in a weekend when I was terrified of breaching a contract. But that's not sustainable or even summonable at will, so it's got no business being a personal standard.

(of course having said that to myself does not immediately undo the personal standard)

@c0debabe i'm bad at math and it was one of my 3 wishes, sorry

@erosdiscordia @socketwench @thegibson honestly I don't know from whence came the notion that dudes are tough, rational creatures