Reading some books on writing advice and some of them are like "FUCK YOU GET UP AT 5AM AND WRITE 8000 WORDS EVERY DAY YOU HAVE TO WANT IT BUTT IN SEAT YOU'LL BE RICH" and I'm like man, that's the kind of failing bullshit that got me into this existential mess I'm carefully working to uninstall from my brain after decades of trying it
Oh, I see, this dude's citing Tony Robbins. Well that's your problem right there
I read plenty of Tony Robbins as an ADHD teen and I don't remember much of the specifics other than that those books fucked me up good
And by fucked up good I mean bad
And by bad I don't mean Michael Jackson, though I guess that's problematic now too
Anyway, I'm trying to thread a needle on following through on my intentions to write more without resorting to self-flagellation because I done burned that mechanism out completely for any purpose besides self-harm
All that said, though, I did realize that as of this past Monday, I managed to produce more than 300 words of creative writing for 27 days of the past 30 days. So that's pretty neat, considering I've been trying to get that engine to turn over for literally decades until now
On birdsite today, before coffee activated the parts of my brain that would give me pause, I made the controversial statement "an understanding of evolution is impoverished if it excludes cooperation as a mechanism" and I've been dreading the follow-up discourse ever since.
Just anticipating an entire yawning maw of "alpha wolves" and rugged individualistic competition discourse opening before me
Here's the recent hot take which escaped my brain onto the birdsite:
What if - and stay with me here for a sec - the entire point of civilization is to make life less hard for each other?
It seems like a waste for evolution to arrive at brains with both individual & social intelligence that can work together to achieve goals within living generations - only to have us double down on competition that mostly works across dead generations.
@anji @cstanhope As far as I can tell, it's a certain strain of particularly techbros and new atheists who like to cosplay as "scientific rationalists" and spout off about social darwinism
@moshboy That controller was so weird but I played the heck out of Everquest with it
@rune Well, I mean that'd be pretty cool too
I feel like the older I get, the more curmudgeonly I get. But, I feel like I'm getting curmudgeonly not in a "fuck you assholes, get a job" way and more in a "fuck you assholes, take care of each other" way.
But I'm also very easily overwhelmed by people, so I'm not great at taking care of them myself.
(I guess since I'm a people that includes myself too 🤔😅)